Breath

perfection08 @ 2006-01-15T13:24:00

2006-01-15T18:25:06Z

-WHY you want to lose weight
-how you will feel when you're 10lbs lighter
-I will be thin,"I will" affirmations
-I need discipline
-"An imperfect body reflects an imperfect person."
-"You will be tempted quite frequently, and you will have to choose whether you will enjoy yourself hugely in the 20 minutes or so that you will be consuming the excess calories, or whether you will dislike youself cordially for 2 or 3 days for your lack of willpower."
-"I'm not starving myself...I'm perfecting my emptiness."
-"Nothing tastes as good as thin feels."
-"The greasy fry, it cannot lie, its truth is written on your thigh,"
-Low Cal Jelly (or Jello, for you Americans)
Celery - it is composed highly of water, it is crunchy, which is said to cause you to eat less, owing to the amount you have to chew it, it is considered a catabolic food.
Carrots are also another safe vegetable (although most vegetables can be on your safe list, these are merely the safest of the safe).
Salsa and mustard - dieting staples. You can dip vegetables in them, they are fat free and low cal, and salsa brings cravings to an abrupt halt. Spicy foods are also thought to fire up your metabolism.
Vinegar - thought to thoroughly reduce your appetite. It is suggested you drink a tablespoon or two before each meal.
Lemons dipped in a sugar substitute such as Splenda or Nutrasweet. (note: In some anorexia circles, even fruit is no good, besides oranges, which are a 50cal food).
Broth (only 5 calories per cube!!)
Egg white - much needed protein.
Pickles.
Lettuce - an absolute 'nothing' food.

1)Ill take vitamin pills frequently so my body wontcrave nutrients, causing binges

2)WANT to be hungry.

3)Hunger is not my enemy! The sooner i will understand this, the sooner i will reach my goals.

4)If you're feeling dangerous, plan out the next few hours so that you're occupied for every single minute. Write a list of things to do for every 15 minutes. eg. exercise, surf the internet, email your friends, clean a room, read a book.

perfection08 @ 2006-01-15T13:14:00

2006-01-15T18:22:00Z

OMG This has been 4ever. Well i have lots of news. My mom found out about my eating disorder and i was putt into lots of shit, i went down too 107 and underweight, i came back home and was 120 now im 135..yea 135! i cant believe it. Supposedly i learn " you dont have to be sick to get attention " i lie myself out and here iam, at the begging again. It was hard. I hate having this i wish i could be normal not always crying for attention. So i need a plan a good one cause parents are all over me now.

Ill start now.

My plan.

Hummm....

maybe 600 cals a day, only meat an veggies.

Excercise well...walking, crunches, etc.

perfection08 @ 2005-07-01T11:04:00

2005-07-01T15:06:43Z

Okay ya i know its been a while! But i didn't really have time for this! So my eating is going great!! And i luv it! I wish i can keep up the good work! Ya so later i want to be a dentist! :) And thats where im going. Ill have to move to quebec city cause the university is over there..only 3 hrs from where iam. I need to do more excercise!! But i dont have really enough energy so im drinking cofee. Ya i know the red bull thingy is better but i cant find it here.

perfection08 @ 2005-06-19T19:26:00

2005-06-19T23:27:01Z

Here are my plans:

Be clean!!!!

* hehe

perfection08 @ 2005-06-18T21:32:00

2005-06-19T01:32:37Z

This moring- 119!

Happy, well at least

perfection08 @ 2005-06-18T21:26:00

2005-06-19T01:27:44Z

my dad is an awful person! He told me that yesterday he slept with his ex...but he is still with my mom! :( Im so sad! Why does he always have to tell me these things???

perfection08 @ 2005-06-14T21:10:00

2005-06-15T01:11:01Z

fuck this shit. i'm going to lose this weight. being fat is not an option.

STARTING WEDNESDAY:
-500 calorie a day max
-negative calorie foods
-lots of liquids
-no processed foods, besides 2 small pretzels a day
-1/2 a potion of protein with dinner

STARTING WEIGHT(june 15): 126

perfection08 @ 2005-06-09T17:28:00

2005-06-09T21:28:19Z

omg i have to go eat...meat with veggies.....

perfection08 @ 2005-06-08T21:08:00

2005-06-09T01:21:49Z

All my icons!

i have more but i need 2 go

perfection08 @ 2005-06-08T20:48:00

2005-06-09T00:48:43Z

Im sad! And i change icons!!

perfection08 @ 2005-06-06T10:35:00

2005-06-06T15:22:16Z

my dad told my mom...that he was cheating on her...and they will divorced! :( SAD*** i can see my mom, she is sad and even when she smiles i cant see it in her eyes that she wants to cry...i always feel like crying but i cant...im really a strong person, i always cry when im alone or when i need attention, which is very rare. Right now i have this happy and sad feeling inside of me because im sad cause of my parents but im happy cause im passed history, im going in history 416 next year!!! yay!! :)

dear mom and dad, ive stopped eating cause of you guys!...

2005-06-05T14:32:13Z

my parents are always fighting and my dad told my mom that he didnt love her anymore, that he cheated on her..etc! It makes me so sad that i WANT them to realize that im stopping eating cause they are breaking the only thing i really love..MY FAMILY! sad***

perfection08 @ 2005-05-30T17:21:00

2005-05-30T21:23:18Z

ya so the thing with my dad, is going better and stuff - happy* But im still feel sad in a way anyways im now 118 and so happpy of it! :) schoole today was fun. I need 66% in my final math exam to pass my math...at least its not like 80% I suck in math..:S

perfection08 @ 2005-05-26T17:39:00

2005-05-26T21:46:01Z

i eat healthy today..there was no junk food, no sugur, only healthy biology food...anyways thats all i have to say for now..well no in class this girl hited my firend.well the girl is pretty alone all the time she doesnt have frienda and she criied like a baby and she is very mean!! trust me its not funny, ya umm i decided that ill fast till i have exma then ill stop for the exman then start again, yap! Im going babysitting tonigh

whay is there always ppl that will be thinner then us???????? ah and there this girl who is ana and really bad she is like 70 pounds and ya. its cool

perfection08 @ 2005-05-25T13:35:00

2005-05-25T18:29:14Z

Hey girls! Well im fine now! :) We fix things with my boyfriend but now i need to talk to his sister because i did a mistake and she and him are in a fight...cause of me, well its not that bad but still i hate it! And oh my gosh today was so funny because i was in spanish class..yes i have spanish classes..lo0l anyways like i was saying- and then my and maybelle, a friend of mind, were sitting in front of these too girls who are really stupid and nerds and there are sop ugly so we were like lets tease them...so we were like teasing them..okay i know that it is not okay but still it was so funny!!! Hanhan. And she was like ah shut-up and then we were laughing. The teacher was like "Jasmine if there is a problem you know you can come sit on front or come talk to me" - Jasmine is the girl who we were teasing, the teacher couldnt yell at us because she couldnt hear us but she knew something was wrong. My eating are going great, im still on weight watchers and i ate 7 points so far today, and i cant past 22 points, cause it wont work. We calculate points with the calories and the carb the fat and the fiber..but its hard to explain so ya. Im still in school, have a free block cause im in dance classe and since there is not many classes left well the teacher decided to stpo dancig and do whatever but we had to stay as a class casue it is the schools rule..:S oh well so thats why im here right now.

anyways ill probaly write back tonight cause i addicted to this! ;)
xxx- good luck girls with your goals, cause i know its hard!!

PS: Well im kinda in love with this old friend..im not sure

perfection08 @ 2005-05-23T20:33:00

2005-05-24T00:36:56Z

i have my old baby blanket and my barbie of when i was little and im here sitting and almost criing cause i just took a bath, it was great, i saw how fuckin fat iam, i thought i was least fat but no!! I'm jumbo elephant, 122 pounds, 5'4 OMG SO overweight..i hate myself i cant be happy and i cant make ppl be happy! :(

Bye !! I wish all of you girls are feeling better than iam and doesnt want to shoot at there self like i feel like doing! Im missing something in my life and i cant hide what it is! :(

perfection08 @ 2005-05-23T15:23:00

2005-05-23T19:24:00Z

The 7-7 Rule
Dinner must be eaten by 7:00 pm. After dinner, no food is to be consumed until 7:00 am at the earliest. This is basically the same as a 12-hour fast, meaning if you live by this rule for an entire year, you will have equivalently fasted for 6 months.

The 3-hour Rule
3 hours must pass between the last time you ate and the time you go to bed. This ensures that you are actively burning calories while the food is initially digesting, versus when you are sleeping, when metabolism slows and you burn fewer calories.

The Double Weigh-In
You must weigh yourself twice a day, minumum. Once at night before you go to bed or after your last bite of food is consumed, and once after using the bathroom in the morning but before any food is consumed. This is a more a self-esteem booster than anything else. You are always thinner in the morning. Also, it allows me to gauge how many calories I feel "safe" eating during the day and then judge at night how well I have done with that figure.

perfection08 @ 2005-05-23T15:04:00

2005-05-23T19:05:33Z

122 this moring girls! yay!! Anyways im not missing my ex..alot..lo0l but anyways i had a great day but im a bit sleepy oh well i think ill go excercise later on today for sure!!! Anyways bye xxx

perfection08 @ 2005-05-22T13:31:00

2005-05-22T17:31:44Z

severely underweight = bmi 16 or less
underweight = bmi 16 to 19
ideal = bmi 19 to 24 ..........................im here 21...:(
moderately overweight = bmi 24 to 26
overweight = bmi 26 to 30
moderately obese = bmi 30 to 33
obese = bmi 33 to 40
morbidly obese = bmi 40 or more

Or there's the Maxim magazine BMI-rating scale:
10 - 19.9 : Eat a friggin' sandwich already.
20 - 24.9 : Lookin' good. Well, lookin' slim, anyway.
25 - 29.9 : Have you put on weight?
30 - 39.9 : Have you put on a Haitian family?
40 and over : Move away from those Twinkies and keep your hands above your head.

perfection08 @ 2005-05-22T13:15:00

2005-05-22T17:16:30Z

Girls Girls guess what? I lost with weight watchers!!! Im now 124..i was 133 when i started!! In one a week! And my ex is really innoying!!

broke up finally and ana heres agaiN!

2005-05-20T21:51:10Z

hey girls.you know the problem i had with my boyfriend..well i broke up its over..didnt eat since then and i wont eat i refuse till i get to 96!!!

perfection08 @ 2005-05-17T18:43:00

2005-05-17T22:46:16Z

fuck fuck fuck my dad is sick and is going to the hospital, no he wont die nut still...hate eating hate my life hate everything..and with my boyfrien well i dont know maybe cause i dont like me that i have troble loving him, maybe? anyways there is tis girl at my school that is ana and she is fuckin skiiny like 80 pounds and before she was what 130...she was fat...well more fat cause im fucking huge jumbo, elephant, barney, whatever you want..iam FAT!

perfection08 @ 2005-05-15T09:21:00

2005-05-15T13:21:12Z

Well the weight watcher are going well..i feel really good! Umm well for my boyfriens we talked and i love him and he loves me but we don't like that same things so we have to sacrifice each other sometimes...even if its the boringing thing i would do. I'm on day three of weight watchers...but im going to lunch with my b-f family...i cant count down food and calories and fiber...ahhh!! But ill remeber what i ate then when ill come home ill check what it was but il try not to eat much!
good luck everyone..hope everything is going right for all of you, give me news!

boyfriend pro- weightwatchers

2005-05-14T14:40:51Z

hey girls...yes it sucks that we cant post..wtf? anyways im on weightwatchers program even if my doctor says its not good for me i dont care, and iam on m second day and ervything id going great, as for eating but as for life there im not so sure. I dont know about my boyfriend if i love him or not?!? I dont feel like seeing him anymore..weird ehn? and he comes to kiss me and its like i feel like pushing him away cause he gets on my nerve, its been 11 months we are going out and i dont want to break his feelings, i dont know what to do!! GIRLS HELP ME...!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!???!?!!! what do i tell him?

thxs bye xxx good luck!

perfection08 @ 2005-05-09T20:11:00

2005-05-10T00:11:33Z

i had a sucky day, even if my weekend was fun, it was my b-day but know its the english exam and ya it sucks..lo0l. im like not in luv with my v-f anymore...weird. really im serious i dont kno what do to its benn like 11 months and know there is no more nothing..but he is like in live with me..
anyways im fat

this is me now
CW: 126...bmi of 21.6!!!